Pulse

My soul shakes,
Quakes, shivers,
For the path

  To victory

   to freedom

         is hard.

But I will fight!
For light, for right!
For friends, faux foes, alike.

The pow'r of Christ
Will be my hope.
    vict'ry is assured.

Though a clash ensues,
Peace is tangible
Where trust is known.

Tick
Tock.

Breathe.

Half past one,
Nighttime quiet begun,
In the absence of noise,
A soul speaks.

Try not to listen,
Impossible to avoid,
Echoes of a void
    under construction.

Peace is fleeting
At least the feeling.
Eternity echoes forever.

Rippling waves
Of cosmic interplay

Stretching without tension

Endless acceleration
But for now I hit the ground.
Reality has returned,
Or I have returned, to it.
Which is it?
It is only in the in-between 
   that we can feel the partition between worlds.

Eh... poem

I'm slightly bored,
Class in ten minutes.
(I wish)
More like thirty,
I was a little early.

I tried to go in,
But the door was locked.
Embarrassment conveniently blocked.

Thirty-three minutes 'til dance,
Time ticks for my second chance,
At not being late all the time.

I've been writing all the events and classes and stuff that I need to remember in a little notebook that I always have on me. I think it might turn out really well. Oooh, I just had a great idea! I'm gonna highlight future events according to the month they're in so it's easier to flip back and find them.

Columbia College Chicago!!!

Hey guys! I realize it's been forever-at least it feels like it to me.

Tomorrow-well, technically today...-I start classes at Columbia College Chicago. I moved into my dorm last week, and I guess I've gotten acclimated. It's definitely been rough and up-and-down spiritually, but I feel like the Colton Dixon song "Through All of It" has been totally true.

Tomorrow I have modern/contemporary dance and ASL II. The first Intervarsity meeting is also tomorrow night. I'm really, really excited about that. Words cannot express my joy. :) Well, except maybe a poem... I do probably write better late at night, but I need to go to bed. I'm just filled with anxious/nervous anticipation of the things to come, so it's super hard to let go enough to go to sleep. It probably doesn't help that I'm staring at a computer screen, but... y'know.

I went to the Church of the Beloved yesterday. It was amazing. I started tearing up before even entering the building because I was so hungry for Christian community, and I bawled my eyes out during the service. I've hung out with people from there after church yesterday and tonight. I guess I like them. :) I almost feel bad being sarcastic like that because hanging out with them feels SO MUCH LIKE HOME OMGOSH.

Blogging playlist: (aka songs I listened to while I wrote)
"This My Soul"
"Go" (which I already played for a non-Christian friend I met here-it's a great story that you should ask me about :) [but you might have to listen to it to really be intrigued...{mysterious enough? let me know in the comments!}])
aaannndddd both of those are by The Gray Havens. Enjoy!

Love you and thanks for your support!

off we go! And a peom...

... because I like mispelling things late at night, apparently.

Redemption

Going where my heart did lead,
Took me to a frightful deed,
Can I ever shake the shame?
Darkened voices whisper names.

But! the truth is,
Through the Blood,
All is washed,
In crimson flood.

Nothing from the past remains,
Naught of sin can stay a stain.
Bless'd forgiveness; overwhelms,
Overtakes the devil's realms.

I don't know when I wrote this piece, but I found it tonight while, ahem, packing for IVLI (Intervarsity Leadership Institute). Pray for me. I'm going there for a month*, from July 2nd to the 29th, and I have to leave at 5:30...



Good life choices... Because I'm still like, awake and stuff (as in 'packing') at this hour. [Oh! I just looked at the time, and technically I'm leaving today!!!! YAY!!!!]

*Yes, for all you technically minded people, it's not quite a month. But it would be, if it was in February. Basically.

ETA (edited to add, for the uninformed): So because of this unforeseen completely planned trip I will sadly not be posting my song until probably August. Or anything else. But that at least is in keeping with *said in a dramatic french accent* "the schedule!"

A drawing...

I've been thinking about the people who God puts in my life who are like lighthouses-they've guided me through the storms of life, and they've been there when it feels like it's all falling apart. Thank you. And thank you especially to my parents.

A song...

I wrote this song a few weeks ago, I think. It doesn't have a tune yet. (Edit: Or a title... Suggestions?) I'm waiting for a nice moment with me alone at a piano for that.

Chorus:
God, I want to love You more,
Jesus, I want to love You more,
Father, I want to love You more,
And more and more,
For all my days,
In all my ways,
Please may You stay
   the center of my life.

Verse 1:
I know I'm gonna go through hard times,
I know I'm gonna wanna quit.
I know that in the valley
I will fall and dilly-dally,
But pick me up and bring me to You

Chorus

Verse 2:
I know that on the mountaintop,
I will think I know what's up,
So teach me true humility.
In the good times and the bad,
Let me look to you my Dad,
And may I always love You

Chorus