Haven't Written In a While... Here You Go

My heart is like a chunk of silly putty. God keeps attaching it, or I do, to people. Slowly, or quickly, (as case may be) I get drawn out, pulled into friendship with that person. Then, snap! God breaks the bond. It hurts so bad. I don't feel like I'm ever going to feel whole unless I become a hermit. (THAT would probably lead to insanity). It doesn't make any sense to me. But, I can't see the whole picture. Maybe that piece of me was what someone needed at that time. Maybe my whole life is destined to consist of leaving shards of my heart in other people but never feeling like I'm getting anything back. But maybe that, in some awful-seeming way, is the path for God to make the biggest impact through me. The only question is, what do I really want? Deep relationships with humankind for the short term or an everlasting relationship with God that does more for God's Kingdom and His people?

What do you want?